2010-4-15 starbucks in 이태원

Again, I'm losing my balance and falling down. endless collapse I feel I am sand man. Can't built anything firm. I don't want to be simple human being so I like my complexity but that make everything difficult especiall balancing. However, I'm like melted ice-cream at least that's how I feel. What's the point bearing this freasing cold weather? Just not to be frozen? As melted ice cream there is no clear direction or purpose. It just ugly and pityful. No body cares. Nobody. It doesn't attract anybody.