When there are two different and quite opposit feeling, express them both side. But not mixed them. Without make middle of two polar go be with both side even thought it might sounds paradoxical or impossible. Consideration other and consideration of myself should be balanced by not neglecting both side. Just be as it is and show what I feel truthfully then both person have to take resposibility of themselves.

comparing to past and see how I have changed

Dream interpretation: Caroline, disconnection, communication

In the dream, I made a phone call to Caroline. And a woman answered, with bad quality phone sound she answered'hello?' I was not sure if that was her voice so I asked 'Caroline?' She responded, 'who?' 'Can I speak with Caroline?', 'Caroline? whom do you look for?' still the quality of sound through the phone was not good. I replied with louder voice 'my friend Caroline. I am looking for my friend Carline....Radoz'. Then I judged that it was a wrong number and told her that I had a wrong number. Scene directly move on to I hit some other phone number and waiting. 'Hello?' She answered and it was her. 'Hey Caroline long time.' Then she responded with delightful attitude but sound quality of phone was bad, noisy and low. I told her that it is very noisy a volum is too low so I would try call again. Second time when she answered the sound was clear and I started to talk with excitement. Then through conversation, In the dream the set up that I created was like this. She actually lives not only in a same country but also not too far from where I live. Then the dream faded away.

Since I dreamt several times today from daytime till evening, I compell to analyze this dream that is the only dream I can remember among several. This should be relate with the issue that I've increasingly concerned and struggled. Core source of issue is desire of unity. And the problem is painful feeling of separation and isolation. And a reaction is striving for good communication.

What is the meaning of this dream. Let's think about one by one. The fact that I called her can be interpreted as I miss her and want to contact her. About other person answered and it was wrong number, when Caroline answered I had noisy sound reflect unsmoothness of our communication especially through those medium which is phone call and e-mail. In awake state reality based on what happened in past when I e-mailed her whether a video mail or in text. The timing of her response is often not reciprocating. There is a mail that I have sent but haven't get any reply. There were some friction and conflict through few text mail we've exchanged. And about new awareness through a phone call conversation that she was actually lives near by me can be interpreted as my wish to be in close distance to her. In other word I feel dissatisfaction by reality that we live so far from each other.