Aug/17

Well I have to write when I feel I need to express things in side of my chest. Am I still falling in love with her, Katie? Am I obsessive about her? What is this anger and negative feeling again? Am I not strong enough to accept all her reaction? She didn't answer the phone and she didn't call me back and she didn't reply my e-mail, and she didn't response to my Internet message. From those fact somethings arises inside of my brain, doubt, rejection, betrayed. 'She is hiding, she fades away, she ignores me.' Another thought 'She is the one who says she will be a friend and she was felt in love with me then, is this her attitude to the person she call friend or person who loved?' Why I think this way? Because I think that's what she is doing, hinding from me and ignoreing me. She only care about her feeling, no consideration to other who like her. No respect. I'm going to stop writing and thinking about this at the moment because it's too much now. It's hard to deal with and negative thoughts killing me. That's not good.