Situated in crisis again (incomplete)

Such a situation makes me think about life and death again. And those desperation and senscerness from this moment makes me write. A passport will be expired in 6 months and need to extend for...for what? For living in America? It's has changed....first of all it's not living it's mere surviving and now I hit the point of fell down on the floor.This survival living is the battle rather than harmonizing with world and I. I was fighting for the battle between ideal/I and reality/the wolrd.